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Updated: Mar 31

21 - world

ending-beginnings; journey; envisioning


an invocation of josé muñoz

We must strive, in the face of the here and now’s totalizing rendering of reality, to think and feel a then and there. Some will say that all we have are the pleasures of this moment, but we must never settle for that minimal transport; we must dream and enact new and better pleasures, other ways of being in the world, and ultimately new worlds. Queerness is a longing that propels us onward, beyond romances of the negative and toiling in the present. Queerness is that thing that lets us feel that this world is not enough, that indeed something is missing.


daydreaming utopia: a guided meditation toward queer horizons

in the spirit of josé muñoz,with teachings from elinor fuchs & maria irene fornez


ingredients: paper and something with which to write; sacred space; imagination; a partner to read aloud to you (or maybe i'll eventually record myself reading the meditation aloud)


1. if you have access, begin by reading “feeling utopia,” the introduction to muñoz' cruising utopia: the then and there of queer futurity; you may also want to read maria irene fornez' "you have to learn how to daydream" and elinor fuch's "visit to a small planet."

2. find a comfortable space. make it sacred. ensure that you will not be interrupted. you may want to light invocation/gratitude candles for munoz, fornez, and fuchs. invite them into your space. honor their creativity and wisdom. thank them for giving you access to new worlds.

3. what is utopia? jot down your working definition/image/aspiration/poem. if you do not have a personal relationship with this word, maybe do some research: read more muñoz; visit the sun card; browse queer/world-creating artwork on instagram or tumblr. or, simply let these words guide you: desire; longing; hope; liberation; emancipation; openings; future… if you have a working relationship with utopia, check in with that word: today, for you, what is utopia?

4. close your eyes. your partner/my disembodied voice will read the following words:

first, think about a time when you experienced utopia. it probably did not last long, this feeling, but consider that too-brief memory with as much detail as possible. what were the circumstances? where did utopia sit in your body? what emotions can you associate with the moment? where were you in time, space, and proximity to others?

conjure that feeling of utopia in yourself now. let the sensation build and grow, from wherever it begins in your body, outward to the tips of your fingers and toes and to the crown of your head and everywhere in between.

expand utopia outside of yourself. it spins and snowballs and morphs and shimmers into something so much bigger than you. keep pushing utopia outward until you are standing on the ground of a new world. or maybe you're floating or flying or swimming or flickering in and out of existence. regardless, you are here.

filled with utopia, squint your eyes. look around you. as i say the next series of words, let them conjure images and sensations; beings and nonbeings; smells and cravings -- anything that keeps the flame of utopia alive.


shape

danger

color

between

temperature

distance

brightness

need

knowledge

sides

proximity

shadow

spirit

outside

present

height

cold

earth

darkness

rotate

with

center

music

love

language

touch

joy

height

change

bone

above

landscape

past

edge

heartbeat

width

mass

warmth

want

voice

full

opening

boundary

breath

water

sound

within

below

death

desire

smell

body

belong


now that your world has solidified, lift up your hand and touch this world. feel how it changes you.


5. come out of your world and into the “real world” – slowly, carefully, quietly. notice any changes in your body. as you open your eyes, notice if anything looks different.

6. before your utopia fades from memory, get it on paper. drawing is great; writing is a solid runner-up option. be as detailed and colorful as possible.

7. what kind of world would allow you to feel like this all the time? how can you live your daily life as a resident of this world? how can you embody the world, move in its direction, bring others along?

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